What is a man to do?

What is a man to do?
What is a man to do, when he has pushed his body through pain all day, when he has wore out every last breath of independent thought.  

What is a man to do when his body has slowly filled with bacteria and infection, he no longer has control of his temperature.

What is a man to do when every muscle aches because of said bacteria or over exertion or because he is always physically and mentally carrying too much weight!

What is a man to do when he finishes a 13 hour day that ends in a three and a half hour board meeting, stops to fill a tire with air and barely carries his aching frame through the door!

What is a man to do when after all this pain and exertion and attempts and holding his head high, after all this, he receives a care package in the mail box with the most eloquent words of love his tired eyes have ever encountered.  Words he could never have thought of to describe the feeling in his heart!

What is a man to do when he has strict orders to gargle and make tea and her the voice of the only person he wants to here.

what is a man to do?

what is a man to do?

But one thing, he must summon any and all energy left inside to love more then he has loved before.  To mold that mush his heart has turned into to try to make some semblance of that fist it is supposed to resemble.  Carry his head higher knowing that whatever fucked up ideals he has labeled or thought in his 29 years on this world of love, all have potential of coming true.

This is what a man is to do!

This is what a man is to write!

This is how a man loves and loves well!

Its not a competition or a game of one upping any one, it is about respect, its about support, its imagining you have nothing and the one thing that would keep you heart lit!  and know it and loving it!

And now his body gives in to the pain of today with the passion and love and optimism of what tomorrow brings knowing its full of any of the cheesy lines i should input now but won't!

sweet dreams